“After I got out of the final treatment center, I knew what made me happy,” Selena explains, “and that was the connection.”
But, as ordered by her doctor, Selena’s planned philanthropic trip to Kenya to see the schools she helped raise funds to build was delayed several years because of her 2017 kidney transplant. Once she’s the apple to travel in 2019, she vowed to travel quarterly
“The truth is, I’ve never felt well,” admitted Selena. “Even when I’m on stage in front of a crowd, I’ll always find someone who doesn’t like me and I believe in them, I want to believe in myself. I’m here in Kenya The people I’ve met are giving because I just want to feel like I deserve to be here with them.”
During her time at the Maasai Mara, Selena bonds with students, talking about love, ambition and, in a particularly emotional conversation with a woman, suicidal thoughts.
After her time in Kenya, Selena moves directly to London and Paris to promote her music, but she struggles to adjust to her life as a celebrity. “It just feels like a waste of time,” she said. “What am I doing now?”
Later admitting that “a part of my heart is still in Kenya,” Selena admitted, “I felt guilty there sometimes. I hate it, I feel like I went and filmed it. experienced, but it’s so hard because I feel so selfish. Am I feeling great? Yes, and do I feel like I’ve made an impression? Yes, but do I feel like I Enough done? No.”
“Talking to someone about mental health in Kenya, that’s beautiful,” she continued. “I don’t know if I felt like, ‘Oh, I did this and I’m such a great person.’ No, this is just the beginning for me.”